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64794 2008 年 01 月 28 日 22:48 Reading (loading. ..) Comments (10) Category: Note
suddenly wide open eyes open,
la gears, saw the familiar night.
back thinking I'm trying, but found two I can not breathe under the weight of the quilt.
maybe, maybe it was a nightmare, as always, the content and details may no longer be important.
I do not know when to begin sleeping in bed, but can not tell the uncomfortable.
turn on the light, a glass cabinet on the bed was visible at the bottom of thick brown liquid, perhaps it is what I want bitter, cold accompanied Thick.
see Table 23:50.
struggled up,
la gear womens shoes, even this house, the air or trace that I could not resist the cold, I wear a sweater started a daze.
This house lived a dozen years, they faded posters on the wall there 七八年 never replaced, every one is so familiar with their every expression, both with me in this room, stagnate seven or eight years.
cabinet bed watching the fire machine, I would like to reach out and took it, then remembered have not bought cigarettes for two months.
go, that stuff can make you uncomfortable ghost even worse time.
mother touched my forehead came in, and then went to the couch to the kitchen since the first meal I made supper. I was thinking, this role will not always be me, years later, the busy kitchen I figure maybe she may be my own. Maybe, maybe not perhaps.
I want to wash your face.
shaver not turn up, the battery may die.
I caught a glimpse in the mirror face, suddenly felt that I am old.
not as like to joke that the total daily.
beard is no longer so sparse,
la gear walking shoes, it seems like I would be more tired lining.
messy hair, as if struggling, who want to continue the enthusiasm, loudly denied that he has been failure .
ripped through the mirror I can see my own, but can not pierce my eyes, I know, it was gone a lot of things, not clear, not transparent, not even pure.
squeezing toothpaste , Xu Wei ears singing \beyond the ordinary.
What is extraordinary? beyond the ordinary, it will okay?
cycle every day, I thought I was safe, but the anxiety that seemed, until the show superficial. Sometimes, the abnormal behavior to better reflect the true state of mind.
I was thinking, if I was proved to be a crazy addiction patients, I feel may be better. at least not have been so dissonant feel.
crazy staying up late, throwing money wantonly, and in some things that unnecessary.
until hoarse, penniless. will be forced to own a good faith impasse.
so I can be quiet. to once again, into thinking.
the meaning of life, in this era has been a subject of abuse out, has turned from a materialist idealism popular personalized.
I am so, the meaning of life is to eat three meals a day, three meals for tomorrow and then busy for the rest of the time you can to enjoy the so-called life.
people living at the top of this, living people in the bottom of the case, sometimes they enjoy life, it is the enough to eat.
I'm just in terms of a standard deviation. There are many wonderful things I have not to try, no chance to try.
therefore, struggle and life, is a confrontation, but also complementary.
all the extreme, it may be destroyed,
la gear mens shoes, the two constant,
la gears sneakers, and can be a long time. as we say degrees.
but I even their current state, can not understand. I need to own in a fight to the extreme to reach the kind of look normal, harmonious material life. It seems everyone has a responsibility to do, after his experience.
Yes, I become tacky, to become a reality. In fact, anything can be, material is life, the spirit is life, no spirit is not only physical, only mental not physical but also will not last long.
seems everyone can at a time, to understand that these principles are not understood, but it should is understood, is penetrated.
everyone busy for the material life. Each person must stand out, each person should have a face, each person must step on someone else.
empty souls free in the lights brightly lit market.
have dared to abandon the materialist spirit of the world is only surrounded by people, they are great, and it is fleeting.
will be remembered by people, but no longer will be the people to follow.
I may soon join in such a zombie.
I do not know what would be corrupted into, but I know I Ruobei corruption, when it is completely rot away, turning away, no deposit known to the world .
This is a bunch of fire within my soul, only it makes me warm, let me confidence, let me forward.
ideal.
the word too heavy, like my quilt,
la gear originals, I covered it every day to sleep, but the weight of it every morning to be stifled.
ideal I responsible?
I do not know that I do not owe a debt owed to their own ideals, and perhaps do not mind it, perhaps, it has been in a corner watching me, waiting for me.
if the ideal is a hang on my wall words, I would not dare to look up it. I would tear it, and then hysterical crying, and finally stick it well.
Yes, there is no need to envy others, but I admire a lot of people. They may not be the richest Perhaps not the most handsome, most beautiful, perhaps not the most easy, but they together with their ideals.
they are lucky.
ideal I can pay? like I said , I am old.
I am too mindful of many things, too afraid of a lot of cumbersome, I have lost the best of their own.
I do not know this situation can be reversed, I could not give up, I found myself never to give up.
I'm just waiting, waiting for an opportunity, perhaps never can not wait. may be to break Now I can see that light.
I do not know.
night was very dark, even if I turn out the light, the snow outside the window or is reflected into the red lights, that made me uncomfortable in my dreams the color.
afraid, be to go through.
morning after This will be like it?